o.jingwen

It's part of my past,present and future. always,

2010-04-25T04:25:00.000-07:00

Happiness that i sought for, maybe it'll stay for awhile and vanish like how it always does. I think/feel that nothing will ever stay the same, we'll always have to compete with time it-self. It's either we make changes and win, or lose cause we stayed the same. Time never stops for us, and i'll make sure i wouldn't be engulfed and devoured by losing.

In this world, is either you win or you lose. That's called reality.

Freedom for me, J

2010-04-23T18:38:00.000-07:00

Freedom is not something that anybody can be given. Freedom is something people take, and people are as free as they want to be.
I realised my wings was never taken away from me, it's only that the coward in me is afraid of heights, unable to fly. ♥

show me how to lie, you're getting better all the time ♥

2010-04-22T22:18:00.000-07:00

-19th april 2010 -
Had lunch at suki sushi, went to kpool for a game of billard and headed off to somerset for the interview at forever21. It went well, they'll call again upon confirmation on the first of may. Well, headed over to east coast and caught a yellow dinosaur with green slipper. I've already gotten the full set of brown slippers dinosaurs(red, pink, light blue, dark blue, green, yellow, white, black). Ended the day with dinner at KFC, and headed home.
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Before (black)

After (gold/brown)

Been slacking off my days untill today, finally updated. Today would be boring as i would be staying at home editing pictures to upload. Finally updated ahjie's birthday photos up on facebook, but i'm too lazy to tag so you people would have to tag yourselves. Found alot of interesting old photos ( like people sticking fake moustache) of us, i miss the old times. *Sighs* oh, and i dyed my hair from black to brown/gold again (:

Jingwen/Zan says : "I want to meet all my sisters/brothers/friends soon,i miss all of them, if you're one of them and you know that you've been neglecting me, and feels guilty after reading this. Do call me/text me/ask me out/date me ♥ asap ! (: " - *Laughs* Better get done with editing my photos first, byeeeeee (:

If you’re going to love me, love me deeply. If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all. If you’re going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say

truth are lies too ♥ache

2010-04-19T21:13:00.000-07:00

my blog's been dead for quite a long time, got sony ericsson satio months back. computer at home's freaking slow, can't stand blogging at home. i've loads of pictures to upload, since march untill now i guess * sighs * ? i quit my job at explorer zone, on sunday. going for the interview at forever21 today at four noon. i want a regular bio clock, normal life. hope all goes well (:

i miss cherrylareina lye, nothing is the same anymore. even he, has forgotten you.

i'll make sure my life would never be the same anymore, and people who don't care would dissapear from my sight. i'll never get any heartache anymore, touch my heart and it'll send a shiver down your spine with the bitterness of cold .

i know eventually my feelings will fade out, that i'll forget about how special you were, or how special you made me feel. eventually, time will change me, or i'll just get use to it changing, and my thoughts of you will drop. you'll cross my mind and then you won't, i'll get the urge to call you, then i won't, i'll find myself wishing you were here, then i won't. it's just a phase, and i've come to accept that that's all i ever was for you too, just a phase for you to get through. i wasn't a life changing experience, i never changed you for the better, and i never will, but i've accepted that that girl was never going to be me, and whether i'm fine with that has yet to be seen, i'm just happy i can be a better type of change for someone who truly does deserve me.

unsatisfied ♥

2010-01-11T14:25:00.000-08:00

i realised i don't like things to stay the same, because it gets boring after awhile. i'm going to get a haircut/ makeover again, getting kind of sick of looking at my-self already. i want a new digital camera, most probably a black cybershot t90 and a new phone most probably sony ericsson satio/aino if possible. my wants always climbs on top of my needs, and i don't know why. photos will be uploaded only after i buy at least one of those stuffs (:

♥ devil at heart, don't trust me too much.

この人は私ですか？ ♥ 憎悪と欲望

2010-01-06T17:16:00.000-08:00

Photos would be up latest by end of this week, been hanging out at oasis68 again. kiyoko left her phone in the washroom and lost it .____. carelessness *sighs* i have been feeling down, i'm not ready to be in a relationship. there are too many things i want to do/try/accomplish, i don't want my-self to eventually suffer like a bird in a cage/a fish out of water,gasping for breaths. i don't want to lose anyone, can't things stay the way they are? i guess time changed us, and sometimes when i look at my own reflection, i ask "what have i become? "

♥
Jennifer, i called out for you.
As you rouse at twilight, your family prayed for your return.
Fortnightly,whilst the declining of the sun,
I secretly crossed my fingers and hoped you would bring yourself back too.

♥ excitement , confusion .

2010-01-02T06:25:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW'S THE BIG DAY ! OMG :X EVERYONE AT HOME IS RUSHING TO GET ALL THE PREPARATIONS DONE (: I CANNOT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT , THE PHOTOS HAVE TO WAIT .____.

愛、妥協、結婚式。 ♥ 永遠のボンディング（：

2009-12-31T23:29:00.000-08:00

uncle alan's wedding in malaysia's on the coming sunday, i'm so excited because uncle alan has always been important to us. i've always loved weddings, the wedding gowns/the banquet but most importantly, it's two person's very special day. it holds such great significance for the groom and the bride, the eternal bond, though it comes with great responsibilites while compromises are made. i want to get married too , hahas (: nah, i don't even have a partner .__. aww, guess it's every girls dream to get married ♥

been night cycling and skating recently, hanging out with kazuhiko and kazuhiro. watched bodyguards and assasins and alvin and the chipmunks two. bodyguards and assasins was freaking boring .__. while alvin and the chipmunks two was hilarious (: i want to watch sherlock holmes/ avatar/ treasure hunter, anyone wants to watch these too? kazuhiro, my sweetest god son caught me a stitch, it was his first time and he caught it and gave it to me! thanks son ♥ having dinner with my family tonight, because it's my grandfather's birthday. meeting yejie after dinner with pekfang, guess we're heading over to oasis tonight. it's been a long time since i last went to drink, guess it's okay to drink once in awhile .___. oh and i guess the ink at red chamber isn't that good, because their grey turned pink, i'm going back to touch up, well i guess i'll have to wait and see how it goes :9 photos of these past few days would be uploaded soon.

マスクを持つ私の痛みと恐怖を隠しながら♥

♥ pictures/ memories of my journey (:

2009-12-18T12:20:00.000-08:00

ME AND MY INK-ED ( RED CHAMBER )- ♥

IVY EATING AND CAMERA SHY WEIAN AT SERANGOON - ♥

ME CAMWHORING ( EVERYWHERE ) - ♥

ME AND XIONG , ME AND IVY ♥

IVY,XIONG,ME AND INKS - ♥

ink inking ink-ed ♥

2009-12-18T10:42:00.000-08:00

♥ 私の夢と希望を打ち砕くしないでください。

ivy and i got ink-ed at red chambers,i fell asleep while inking tho. love the feeling of inking, i crave for more but if i get anymore i'll probably be chased out of the house, sleeping on the streets. went to serangoon after inking, met up with ray and weian. left for downtime to meet kazuhiko for l4d after ivy ate. after a round of l4d, and few rounds of audition we left for shunfu mart to have breakfast. ivy left for home afterwhich, and i went to kazuhiko's house to clean and decorate his house for the christmas house party. can't wait, the only thing left is the alcohol. kazuhiko, thanks for always being by my side :] well tomorrow's kazuhiro's big day, kazuhiko and me will be fetching him back, he's finally going to be a free man/boy :] (photos will be up soon, in the next post ♥ )

INKINGS - ♥
fengzi/wind's a tattoo artist from red chambers, currently he's having a tattoo promotion for people age sixteen to twenty, full back for two thousand dollars. if you're interested, please book an appointment with him. handphone: 98399114 red chamber's located at (100 Eu Tong Sen Street #02-14 Pearl's Centre Singapore 059812)

ジョーカー、 DESMOND.

2009-12-15T11:07:00.000-08:00

♥ 私が君たち欠場。（セラングーン兄弟や姉妹） ♥

i've been staying at home these few days, playing facebook games. eat,sleep and play. nothing interesting untill today :] web cam with desmond, didn't see him for a long long time already.

desmond and my conversation in messenger "
[c=46]desmond[/c][c=29]CHAN[/c][c=20]=)[/c] [c=48] fANtASy[/c] [c=31]DkX [/c] says:
LOL You owe me a punch now
♥靖雯kumiko says : 诱惑，罪孽。 says:
LOL why ?
[c=46]desmond[/c][c=29]CHAN[/c][c=20]=)[/c] [c=48] fANtASy[/c] [c=31]DkX [/c] says:
HAHAHAH Cause You QIAN BIAN I very JI JIAO I'll remember who owe me punches You owe me 1 punches And after that post
♥靖雯kumiko says : 诱惑，罪孽。 says:
LOL
[c=46]desmond[/c][c=29]CHAN[/c][c=20]=)[/c] [c=48] fANtASy[/c] [c=31]DkX [/c] says:
you are going to owe me 2 punches and 1 kick . " uhs , see what that meanie said ? :}

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クリスマス ♥ Christmas

2009-12-12T04:51:00.000-08:00

私は再び自分の生活を始めるよ。勉強を開始し、ハードディスクは自分の将来のために働い。幸運私には（：私母親,は良母親.人々は私を信じて停止するが、彼女はしませんでした。感謝母に♥ ！：]

santa's coming to town people ! ♥ well, have been hanging out at kazuhiko's place. kiyoko's currently selling log cakes, i've seen pictures of it. information for the weight watchers, all cakes are made with low fat ingredients and high quality flour. It comes in different designs and toppings, more detailed information will be at the bottom of this post if you're interested, pictures would be up as soon as i get them.

Homemade Christmas Log Cakes
Essentially there are three flavors,
1 Durian Exotic for the Venturing Ones $38
2 Snow White for the Faint Hearted $32
3 Ultimate Chocolate Ganache for the Chocoholics $35

Two new flavours in the house,
*NEW* Tropical cheese cake $42
*NEW* Oreo Cheese cake $42

To order, please contact kiyoko by 16th december 2009.
For big orders at discounted rates and deliveries, she can be contactable for further details too. there will be additional charge for home deliveries.

Deliveries are available from 23rd to 26th december 2009. merry christmas!

Contacts - email: xiiaoru93@hotmail.com

写真と私たちの思い出 ❤

2009-12-08T23:54:00.001-08:00

9th december 2009
today, ate with mummy at sakura, again. well happy birthday mummy, i love you ! played l4d two with kiyoko and kazuhiko before i came back home to have the photos uploaded, it's according to date and it's category. hence, it's a little messy due to the picture being horizontal/vertical. sihui, kiyoko, kazuhiro and kazuhiko please don't blame me for uploading your unglamarous photos :p christmas's coming and santa's coming to my house, i want presents! (: oh, and look at my dark eye rings it's hideous. i need more sleep, i need to rest, guess i'll need sleeping pills. ):

the dustbin in front of angmokio hub :x

8th december 2009 - downtime (:

8th december 2009 - void deck (:

30th november to 6th december (:

my sister's and my dress (:

great grandmother house (:

uncle's second house (:

永遠に閉じ込められた❤

2009-12-08T21:45:00.000-08:00

ƸӜƷ 久美子和彦和宏清子、♥兄弟や生命の姉妹。ƸӜƷ
清子和彦和弘、私はいつも一緒に、これらの数日間です。
写真は後にロードされます。（：
王女久美子と彼女の王子和彦 ♥ 王女清子と彼女の王子和宏。
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ 永遠の愛は、永遠に一緒に。 ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

9th december 2009
today, woke up at around 12p.m, i'm going to have some rest at home. surfing the net, enjoying the silence. pictures will all be in the next post .

8th december 2009
the three of us slacked at kazuhiko's house area for around an hour and left at one a.m for l4d two at downtime, saw sihui and her clique. didn't repeat any rounds though it's kiyoko's first time playing, good job little sister (: played till around five, went to ate supper/breakfast and slept at kazuhiko's house, had dinner there and left for home with kiyoko. reached home at around eight p.m, after bathing and mummy's facial, surf the net for a while and went to sleep.

7th december 2009
my family, together with kiyoko had an early celebration for mummy's birthday at sakura. well, gave mummy her birthday present (a body shop perfume ). she's been a great mother for us, and i hope that all her wishes may come through and true. aftermath, daddy sent me and kiyoko to kazuhiko's house area to meet up with kazuhiko at around nine. we cabbed over to serangoon central for singing session, which ended around eleven thirty , cabbed over to kazuhiko's house.

30th november - 6th december 2009
spent these days at kazuhiko's house with kazuhiro and kiyoko, watching television/mahjong/cooking/eating/slacking. and we'll never have to be alone again.

29th november 2009
sunday's trip to malaysia was great, bought a dress/gown for my uncle's up coming wedding and loads of other stuffs. my uncle's second house is beautiful, i'll be going over to stay for a few days after the furnishings are done (: well, great grandma looks healthy.

we've been through up and downs (:

2009-11-27T04:55:00.001-08:00

I MISS TAN HUI XIAN :]
BFF FOREVER [:
since primary school .

→ as time pass us by, together we'll stay ♥

2009-11-27T03:16:00.000-08:00

27th november 2009
uhs, peilin couldn't make it in the end, hence i stayed home. brought little brother daniel to the market place with mommy, for a haircut, and mummy bought loads of sweets for me, and some groceries for tonight's dinner. i love home cooked food (: three cheers for mummmmy !

26th november 2009
bodyache, hence i stayed home and watched the show ♥ [ 妻子的诱惑 ] instead, i'm at episode sixty-five already (:

25th november 2009
was on webcam with edmund.y when joshua,sky and kiyoko came over to my house. joshua bought my favourite beehoon for me, thanks bro :] after sky and ru left, joshua and i decided to go jogging with ivy. we strolled and jogged over to ivy's house, and waited for her to get ready. she took darn long, joshua and i think she's getting ready for a beauty pageant instead. we finally left after what seems like hours, on our way to joshua's house, a BIG black snake slithered across our path and ivy screamed like nobody's buisness , i did ~~not~~ scream (: jogged to joshua's house, then to angmokio central, slacked with peilin for awhile and jogged to explorer. we had dinner at my house downstairs and they left after sending me home. i really appreciate the little things that you guys do for me, thanks (:

revolted, disgusted.

2009-11-24T23:46:00.000-08:00

will be updating pictures as soon as possible , had sushi with pekfang on the
seventeen and pizzahut on the eigthteen . been slacking these few days with
a clique, lost track of time. it's time for me to decide, what's important and
what's not. went jogging with peilin yesterday(24th), chatted with kangwei
and zhiwei for an hour or so, i left for home. currently obssesed with a show
called ♥ [ 妻子的诱惑 ] , my desktop went *BOOM* so i'm using my sister's
laptop. supposed to go cycling at east coast park with jenny.o but i was lazy.
friday, i'm going to swim with peilin and saturday i'm meeting a friend who's
going to pass me my belated birthday present. sunday i'm going into malaysia,
to celebrate my great grand mother's birthday (:

happy birthday, zhenggang daddy :] 爸爸，生日快乐。(24thnovember)
may all your wishes come true, and lastly hope you did great for your o's (:

爱过恨过哭过也笑过，亲吻过谁的脆弱？

i have my reasons .

2009-11-16T13:50:00.000-08:00

16th november 2009
reached home at five in the morning after parting with sandy.k and leefong, used the computer till six in the evening without sleeping. went to sleep at six thirty in the evening, wasted a day just like this :[

15th november 2009
sandy.k and me, taken on the cab to angmokio central.

met up with sandy.k and cabbed over to meet andrew at angmokio central for dinner and movies. initially we wanted to have sushi at broadwayplaza, but there was a long queue hence we headed to pinsi at hub for dinner, afterwhich we headed to the theatres on level four, sandy.k wanted to watch '2012' but it was sold out. hence we went to zonex instead, andrew went to play games, so me and sandy.k decided to take neoprints because it's been four years since we last took them together. afterwhich we headed to kpool for a round of billard and andrew and us parted ways. me and sandy.k cabbed over to explorerzone my workplace as i wanted to eat the topshell there. leefong,yajun,tricia was working, and weikang,vincent, daryl and his friend was there too. after finishing the topshell, we(leefong,sandy.k and me) went to play photohunt and word dojo and pool all thw way untill closing. andrew came back with a friend and we(andrew,his friend,leefong,sandy.k and me) went over to block226, we ate there and chatted all the way till five and we left for home. leefong was bugging andrew and friend all the way to teach her how to ride/start a bike , laughs* she's so persistent.

sandy.k with me, taken at pinsi .

EXPLORER PHOTOS :]
sandykoh and me with the neoprint (:

leefong and me (:

yajun and me (:

orange juice, milk tea and me (:

sandy.k with the neoprint we took [:

that neoprint four years ago, leefong was in it too. lets take a neoprint again, together <3

sandy.k and yajun, yajun and me [:

lastly, we took too many photos [:

14th november 2009
- sandy.k and me with my chowamushi (:

met up with sandy.k and headed for angmokio central's broadwayplaza to have sushi, afterwhich we went hub after a round of billard at kpool, to shop for some clothes and cosmetic. went to thebodyshop, bought a shimmer gloss and was given a mascara and a two small bottles of perfume(aqua lilly) from my aunt . went to osmose next and bought a top at a total of twenty percent discount, as i was a member and it was my birthday month. sandy.k wanted to eat at thedesserthouse, hence we went there and saw ahheng, he's working as a waiter there. sandy.k went to watsons and bought something and we left for home afterwhich (:

photos taken at thedesserthouse - ahheng and "ahheng effect" (:

- sandy.k and me with our desserts (:

13th november 2009
happy birthday yajun (: celebrated it at explorerzone

[overdue photos and post (: ]

27th october 2009
kelvin(boss) birthday celebration photos (: had the celebration at explorer and left to bugis with explorer clique for steamboat after the celebrations at explorer (:

kelvin's ice cream cake and him at explorer (: aww * he's blushing .

taken at bugis, while we're having steamboat , kelvin and us (:

11th october 2009
happy birthday, dearest leefong (: you're loved .

my days , not yours.

2009-11-11T19:50:00.000-08:00

the whispers turns to shouting
the shouting turns to tears
your tears turns to laughter
and took away our fears .