my blog's been dead for quite a long time, got sony ericsson satio months back. computer at home's freaking slow, can't stand blogging at home. i've loads of pictures to upload, since march untill now i guess * sighs * ? i quit my job at explorer zone, on sunday. going for the interview at forever21 today at four noon. i want a regular bio clock, normal life. hope all goes well (:i miss cherrylareina lye, nothing is the same anymore. even he, has forgotten you.i'll make sure my life would never be the same anymore, and people who don't care would dissapear from my sight. i'll never get any heartache anymore, touch my heart and it'll send a shiver down your spine with the bitterness of cold . i know eventually my feelings will fade out, that i'll forget about how special you were, or how special you made me feel. eventually, time will change me, or i'll just get use to it changing, and my thoughts of you will drop. you'll cross my mind and then you won't, i'll get the urge to call you, then i won't, i'll find myself wishing you were here, then i won't. it's just a phase, and i've come to accept that that's all i ever was for you too, just a phase for you to get through. i wasn't a life changing experience, i never changed you for the better, and i never will, but i've accepted that that girl was never going to be me, and whether i'm fine with that has yet to be seen, i'm just happy i can be a better type of change for someone who truly does deserve me.