Zan, Yours Truly.

It's part of my past,present and future. always,

Sunday, April 25, 2010, 4:25 AM

Happiness that i sought for, maybe it'll stay for awhile and vanish like how it always does. I think/feel that nothing will ever stay the same, we'll always have to compete with time it-self. It's either we make changes and win, or lose cause we stayed the same. Time never stops for us, and i'll make sure i wouldn't be engulfed and devoured by losing.

In this world, is either you win or you lose. That's called reality.

Freedom for me, J

Friday, April 23, 2010, 6:38 PM

Freedom is not something that anybody can be given. Freedom is something people take, and people are as free as they want to be.
I realised my wings was never taken away from me, it's only that the coward in me is afraid of heights, unable to fly. ♥

show me how to lie, you're getting better all the time ♥

Thursday, April 22, 2010, 10:18 PM

-19th april 2010 -
Had lunch at suki sushi, went to kpool for a game of billard and headed off to somerset for the interview at forever21. It went well, they'll call again upon confirmation on the first of may. Well, headed over to east coast and caught a yellow dinosaur with green slipper. I've already gotten the full set of brown slippers dinosaurs(red, pink, light blue, dark blue, green, yellow, white, black). Ended the day with dinner at KFC, and headed home.
- end -

Before (black)

After (gold/brown)

Been slacking off my days untill today, finally updated. Today would be boring as i would be staying at home editing pictures to upload. Finally updated ahjie's birthday photos up on facebook, but i'm too lazy to tag so you people would have to tag yourselves. Found alot of interesting old photos ( like people sticking fake moustache) of us, i miss the old times. *Sighs* oh, and i dyed my hair from black to brown/gold again (:

Jingwen/Zan says : "I want to meet all my sisters/brothers/friends soon,i miss all of them, if you're one of them and you know that you've been neglecting me, and feels guilty after reading this. Do call me/text me/ask me out/date me ♥ asap ! (: " - *Laughs* Better get done with editing my photos first, byeeeeee (:

If you’re going to love me, love me deeply. If you’re going to break my heart, then break it all. If you’re going to care, care for me completely. If you decide not to hold me, then just let me fall. If you’re going to stay, then stay forever and if you want to leave, then do it today. If you’re going to change, change for the better. And if you’re going to talk, please mean what you say

truth are lies too ♥ache

Monday, April 19, 2010, 9:13 PM

my blog's been dead for quite a long time, got sony ericsson satio months back. computer at home's freaking slow, can't stand blogging at home. i've loads of pictures to upload, since march untill now i guess * sighs * ? i quit my job at explorer zone, on sunday. going for the interview at forever21 today at four noon. i want a regular bio clock, normal life. hope all goes well (:

i miss cherrylareina lye, nothing is the same anymore. even he, has forgotten you.

i'll make sure my life would never be the same anymore, and people who don't care would dissapear from my sight. i'll never get any heartache anymore, touch my heart and it'll send a shiver down your spine with the bitterness of cold .

i know eventually my feelings will fade out, that i'll forget about how special you were, or how special you made me feel. eventually, time will change me, or i'll just get use to it changing, and my thoughts of you will drop. you'll cross my mind and then you won't, i'll get the urge to call you, then i won't, i'll find myself wishing you were here, then i won't. it's just a phase, and i've come to accept that that's all i ever was for you too, just a phase for you to get through. i wasn't a life changing experience, i never changed you for the better, and i never will, but i've accepted that that girl was never going to be me, and whether i'm fine with that has yet to be seen, i'm just happy i can be a better type of change for someone who truly does deserve me.

unsatisfied ♥

Monday, January 11, 2010, 2:25 PM

i realised i don't like things to stay the same, because it gets boring after awhile. i'm going to get a haircut/ makeover again, getting kind of sick of looking at my-self already. i want a new digital camera, most probably a black cybershot t90 and a new phone most probably sony ericsson satio/aino if possible. my wants always climbs on top of my needs, and i don't know why. photos will be uploaded only after i buy at least one of those stuffs (:

♥ devil at heart, don't trust me too much.

この人は私ですか？ ♥ 憎悪と欲望

Wednesday, January 6, 2010, 5:16 PM

Photos would be up latest by end of this week, been hanging out at oasis68 again. kiyoko left her phone in the washroom and lost it .____. carelessness *sighs* i have been feeling down, i'm not ready to be in a relationship. there are too many things i want to do/try/accomplish, i don't want my-self to eventually suffer like a bird in a cage/a fish out of water,gasping for breaths. i don't want to lose anyone, can't things stay the way they are? i guess time changed us, and sometimes when i look at my own reflection, i ask "what have i become? "

♥
Jennifer, i called out for you.
As you rouse at twilight, your family prayed for your return.
Fortnightly,whilst the declining of the sun,
I secretly crossed my fingers and hoped you would bring yourself back too.

♥ excitement , confusion .

Saturday, January 2, 2010, 6:25 AM

TOMORROW'S THE BIG DAY ! OMG :X EVERYONE AT HOME IS RUSHING TO GET ALL THE PREPARATIONS DONE (: I CANNOT CONTAIN MY EXCITEMENT , THE PHOTOS HAVE TO WAIT .____.